For Zulay, it was seven weeks later, just a few months after she and Kevin decided the coronavirus pandemic, and the ensuing shutdown of their sharing industry, really provided the perfect time to get started. start building their families. “I said, ‘Okay, everything’s closed. Movie studios shut down. The agency is shutting down. This is our moment,” she explained. “As you can see, that’s not how we planned it.”
Instead, as she confronts the physical pain of her loss (“You didn’t miscarry one day and it will go away, even physically. You’re in this for a while. long time, where your body has to heal”) the inner turmoil is about to destroy her. “You feel embarrassed, you feel like, ‘Wow, my body can’t do that,'” shared. If loving you is wrong actress.
“I remember thinking to myself all the time, just really micro-analyzing everything I did and everything I didn’t do,” she continued. “It was like, ‘I drove home too late that night and drove through that pothole.'”
She even blamed her family for letting her leave her mother’s house that night. “There is so much emptiness, shame and anger towards myself,” she explains. “I’m angry at my doctor. I just lashed out at everyone a little, including my family. Like, ‘Why did you let me do this?'”
